lost and found

i don't know where i come from
i don't know what i'm here for
i don't know where i'm going

does it matter?
i got nothing to hide

some pleasure and some pain
breaking through this endless wheel

i don't know what i pray for
when i kneel

i'll get inside
and let go my mind
til' I left with nothing
and nothing is everything

tuhan, bercintalah denganku

tuhan
kemari
kesini
aku tunggu kau
di atas ranjang
kita bersetubuh bersama
gairahku gairahmu
di sini, di saat ini

buka lah pakaianmu
tunjukan siapa dirimu
kemari,
kau di atas, aku di bawah
kau di depan, aku di belakang
friksi
tanpa henti
tanpa kenal waktu
kita saling menikmati

tak ada lagi norma
tak ada lagi syarat
hanya aku dan engkau

friksi

2 manusia
tanpa pakaian lahir dan batin
dwitunggal
keberadaan yang utuh
lingga dan yoni
banyak bilang ini hitam
biarkan saja
karena tanpa hitam
saya tidak akan tahu putih

i want the seed of life
leave me be
til the end of time

Matthew

The light of the body is the eye

If therefore your eye be single, your body shall be full of light

[Matthew 6:22]

So how can anyone say that they're in love? with a specific person, for example. They're only in love with the anticipations of the emotions they're addicted to.

Would you want to be in love with someone, that only saw you as a means to an end?

Would you want to tell somebody you love them, when in reality who they are is a means to an end?

berparas
angin
di dalam
kelembutan
duniawi
tanpa meninggalkan
jejak
bekas lumpur
di tanah
dalam kesunyian aku
menari

Got an email from a friend of mine

"There's a saying in Zen Buddhism, before you enter the Path, the mountain is just a mountain and the river is just a river, when you're walking the Path, the mountain is no longer the mountain and the river is not the river. And after you complete the Path the mountain is still the mountain and the river is still the river.'

We all somehow know the right thing that we're suppose to do but never did. Knowing the truth in our heart yet going against it time and again..This is one of the lesson that each of us come here to learn. Learn to trust and honor the voice within for it always spring forth from truth. And the truth lies in your Heart. This is also a reminder for myself I guess haha... Trust that you're guided and no matter what's the choices you've made they're no mistake, but just another lesson to learn."

This is part of an email Xavier sent to me. Xavier is a Buddhism lecturer I met few years ago in Singapore. I haven't fully understood the Zen concept he offered to me, what I can grasp so far is that after completing the Path, mountain is still mountain and river is still river, but the way we perceive mountain and river may be altered, even though their existence remains unchanged in physical reality/normal senses.

DNA + (Love/Fear) = ?

there are 64 codes of amino acids in our DNA structure made from 4 elements:

-carbon
-oxygen
-hydrogen
-nitrogen

logically, we should have 64 codes activated in our DNA structure, yet presently we only have 20 act codes

emotions affect DNA functions:

fear -> slow energy, slow frequency
love ->high energy, high frequency

the vibration of frequency caused by one's emotional state directly affect genetic conditions, our emotions determine how we perceive world because the vibration emitted by subject also exists in object.

all is one

Am I reaching for the secrets too soon?

The Great White Brotherhood

"Happiness is like a ball: you keep kicking it and running after it, and just as you are about to catch it, you kick it again... and start running after it all over again. Yes, it is the chase that stimulates you. It is in the quest, in the pursuit of a goal that you find happiness.
When you get something you want, of course, you are happy for a little while, but that satisfaction is soon followed by a feeling of emptiness, and you start to want something else. Your satisfaction never lasts. So what is the answer? The answer is to set out in pursuit of the farthest and most inaccessible goal: perfection, immensity and eternity. In pursuing this goal, you will find all the things you desire: knowledge, wealth, power and love. Yes, you will find these things without even asking for them."

'Live in Spirit'

Look how encumbered are the roads upon the earth...
they are less on water and even less in the air, and
you can easily increase speed without risk of accidents.
Let's interpret these facts. If we descend in the
physical plane, that is, in the stomach, the belly,
the sex, we'll have lots of accidents, because that's
the way it is in the physical plane. You'll say:
"Ok, since it is so, I'll go into the astral plane,
the feelings, the emotions." Of course, you can live
there more rapidly, but you'll bump in the interests
of your wife, your boss, your colleagues, and there
too there shall be conflicts and accidents. "OK, I,ll
go in the mental plane then, in the world of thought."
That's fine, but there again you can collide with all
those that don't have the same philosophical, scientific,
religious, political conceptions as you. If you really
want to never be hit, shoved, trampled, go even further
than air, in the subtle, clear and luminous regions
of the aether.

-- Omraam Mikhael Aivanhov

All Beings

Pray
In hope to arrive in some 'better place'
Soon I say, soon
What a relief to feel that I no longer have to continue riding this roller coaster

Would it really be a relief?
Would leaving this feverish ground bring me solitude?
Would it?

I may go home
I may, I don't know
But I do know that I'm not going to leave without you
Why would I leave without you?
Am I not you?
I'm not going to neglect you in the wild
While I'm on my way to enjoy the facilities universe promises me

If I leave, I am not going to leave alone
and If I do
I'll come back
and I will take this ride all over again
Together
For you, with you
All beings

Clairvoyance

If the doors of perceptions were cleansed everything would appear to man as it is: Infinite -- William Blake

Forgotten

The beauty is but in our eyes
The meaning is but in our mind
The truth is but in our soul
The answer is but in our heart

Oh what a world of illusions
Blind led by the blind

Awake though still asleep
Alive though still dead

Lets take off all our clothes
Lets get naked
Like Adam and Eve
Where I can see yours
and you can see mine

Burn all the shirts and dresses
The pants and the skirts
The golds and jewels
That has so long covered us

Playground of fantasy
Ah.. just playing roles here
Then what?
Then let us all die
Don't be afraid to die
Because in dying we are born

Charles Manson's Talks on Truth

They are sneaking in the county jail
Looking under the door to see if the man is there
Sneaking like little children out of town
Sneaking
Sneaking all around the courthouse
Sneaking in and out of the ventilators
Sneaking everywhere
Everything is sneaky up around Sneaky Ville
Everything we have to do to get to the truth has to be sneaky
It seems a shame to sneak to get to the truth
To make the truth such an evil dirty old nasty thing
You got to sneak to get to the truth
The truth is condemned
The truth is in the gas chamber
The truth has been in your stockyards
Your slaughterhouses
The truth has been in your reservations
Building your railroads
Emptying your garbage
The truth is in your ghettos
In your jails
In your young love
Not in your courts, or your congress, or the old sit judge man on the young
What the hell do the old know about the young?
They put a picture of Old George on the dollar and tell you that he is your father, worship him
Look at the madness that goes on, you can’t prove anything that happened yesterday
Now, the only thing that’s real
You can try to prove that Columbus sail on an ocean
But it’s not the same ocean, it’s a different ocean, it’s a different world
Everyday
Every reality
Is a new reality
Every new reality is a new horizon
A brand new experience of living
I got a note last night from a friend of mine
He rise in his note of what he might have to do in order to save his reality
As I save mine
You can’t prove anything!
There is nothing to prove!
Every man judges himself
He knows what he is
You know what you are
As I know what I am
We all know what we are
Nobody can stand in judgment
They can play like they are standing in judgment
Then take you off and control the masses
With your human body
And they can lock you up in the penitentiaries, and cages, and put you on crosses like they did in the past
But it doesn’t amount to anything
What they’re doing is, they’re only persecuting a reflection of themselves
They’re persecuting what they can’t stand to look at in themselves
The truth
The cant stand to look at the truth in themselves
They persecute themselves
They are butchering themselves every time they go on the freeway
They hate themselves
Look at the signs, “Stop”, “Go”, “Turn here”, “Turn there”, “You cant do this”, “You cant do that”, “You cant, you cant, you cant”, “This is illegal”, “That’s illegal”, “Everything’s illegal”
The priest used to watch over the people
Now they are watching the people
The president does not represent the people, he should be on the roadside picking up his children, but he isn’t
He is in the white house, sending them off to war
And you’re saying I have to pay for this again?
And again and again I’ve got to pay for your sins
How many times have I got to pay for your sins?
I’m getting tired
I’m getting tired

The people you call my family were people that you didn’t want
Children that were along side the road that their parents had kicked out
So I took ‘em to my garbage dump and fed ‘em and taught ‘em that in love there is no wrong
Everything they’ve done they’ve done for the love of brother

Charles Manson